i wish i could trust you enough to know that if i called right now and asked you to take care of me you would come in a heartbeat
(or a bit longer than that due to human limitations)
and then spoil me silly with all of the attention you can give a human being at one time and chide me for being an idiot but still smile at me with that smile of yours i love
i could force you to make a million fickle pinky promises over the smallest things and i wouldn’t be able to trust you one hundred percent to keep them
i don’t even think we’d be this close if you didn’t have so many things to complain about
and even if we were i doubt that you would be the one to help me if i asked
why am i depending so much on someone i can’t trust myself to
why am i doubting you when you actually are there for me when i least expect it
why am i hung up over you like this
i hate you just a tad and you confuse me and i’m not even sure if i feel as strongly as i do before but i just can’t let you go
because it’s youÂ
